Reminded

When you stop doing the things you love to do
You know something's wrong with you
I am appalled to find in myself that I do what I ought to do and loved to do
Only as an exception.
What woke me up from my slumber was an old friend
Who spoke of "the girl I used to know"
I pictured myself as I used to in my dreams
I was hardly what I wished to be.
She gently took my hand and showed me 'what was' which defined my vision
The faces, the memories, the pain, the joy, the sharing...
While reminding me that what I wished to be might not be what God wants me to be!
Pause.
Hit.
Surrender.
I was back on a different plane
Not one I controlled, not one I absolved myself from
But one where there's purpose,meaning and peace...
My prayers changed since then
Now  I really bow myself  down when I pray
I say"Thine will be done" and I mean it.

I have another reason to be thankful for
This old friend from the old pages of my life
Old yet relevant
A treasure to cherish.

Hold onto old friends
They are your links to the past
The past which holds your dreams
Unalloyed by reality, disappointments and the harsh elements
They help you see the fearless child you once were
And I tell you-
That child is what you should be!